Before I put myself out there

The amount of times I've hesitated and fought against myself are endless. This world it seems, up to this point has been an ever flowing stream of wasted time and lazy thought. Engaging in what is easy, what is stimulating, what is "fun". All the while working my tail off to make ends meet because I was never to be denied the title of hard worker. 

Failing to see the damage that stripped away my soul. The dents chipping away my intelligence, vigor and energy. For every day that passed and I continued to fight my inner self, was just another time in the pile that I denied my true purpose. That inner battle that I let clip away at the endless light that shone within me. Working seemingly forever in the incredibly wrong direction.

You.

Me.

Every single being that walks this Earth - has a direction.

And we are ALL host to that little piece of light that shines within is. 

Silently guiding our way.

Whether we believe in it or not it's what flows through your veins, lights up your brain and what makes every single one of us tick. It's the meaningful flow behind that whole "we are all connected" schpiel and it cannot be denied.

So while I've done a scrupulous job at living such a comfy life, I have since come to the realization that this position no longer serves me. I strongly doubt it serves you too. 

Endless amounts of fearful bitching that I've let go off in my head and just be accepted by my brain are now beneath me. Fear is no longer an option. For I was brought here for a purpose and although I sometimes like to think that's to eat bagged potato chips, binge watch tv and sit on socials, I am damn well assuring myself now- that this just isn't it.

The lazy ends here. The excuses must die now. I am not getting any younger.

So this is my call out to the wild that lives in us all, that screams to be set free and is so often in our everyday denied. Before I put myself out there to be shared with all of you, heed my inner call because it's the one inside you too. 

We were made to be remarkable, not a terrible waste of space. 

Not made to sit on the couch and take fucking Netflix in all day. 

There are so many of us who struggle with the vision of what we're about 

And the reason I live now is to figure that all out. 

Happiness is the goal and more self care too, for putting myself out there is just what I'd like to do. 

I hope that you'll keep reading and return some day for more. 

For there's a purpose to this calling that can be denied no more.